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So.. we heading up, now here we are.
I'm at my home, in front of the PC all day. He just had a safe flight to Makasar.
I was on his home last night, to meet his parent and brother. To meet him of course.
I cry while our conversation just started, I can't imagine living my own world alone, I usually doing all together with you. You're my angel, a really angel without wings. Your smile lighting up my life, It shining from ur face.
Your eyes tell me everything, if you can stay you would stay. This is the fact that I should face at. I'm missing you already. Gonna love you for all the time, You're the best I've ever had.
You brought your phone to your study, even though we could only texting while you were on the road. It makes me cheering anyway, I kept my eyes opened even I sleepy as fuck, All I did is for texting you.
All the new things just begin. I should let my self face that I haven't got a father, my mom is somewhere, and my boyfriend is on his way. I believe that you guys would coming back, it's all just about the time.

And this is our last selfie before he leaves

I haven't any words to tell, I just hate mylife.
Dad, take me with you up there. I can't even imagine how life's go on after this painful.
Hardest part of my life, what can be worst than this?
Losing you, mom, and my beloved one.
Do you guys hate me or what? Can't we just live together? NO LEAVE.
I let my happiness gone, I did. And they're still called me selfish.
All I want is just to be around of people I loved, having diner, chillin, singing with you guys.
My life is disaster, I can't even stand anymore.

Let me tell you what I'm feeling now.
I'm not even ready to see he wearing a cops' shirt.
I don't eveeeeen like it, it changed him a lot.
To be honest i never wanna feel so fvcking sad just like what i feel today and the other days before.
All i did is just crying, worried, dizzy, and hate the fact that he's not gonna be with me for a long time.
Now everybody just gonna laugh at me, my happiness is gone, someone who i love the most is betray me with his dream. And the dream is just makin me so down and havin no benefit at all to me.


I can't stand with this anymore.
Say goodbye to my fvcking feeling, my fvcking happiness.

wassap!
just come back to blog bc had a lot to do work before, now guess whatttttttttttttttttttttt
IM GONNA BE ALONE bc my boyf is going to study 7 months in another island.
Damn God, u must be kidding me. No. That's the fact and i should face it.

We're cute, aren't we? lmfao
I'm trying to spend all of my time with him before he leaves, yeah so far it looks so good, the promise, the words, the kiss, the cuddle.
But seriously i can't even imagine that im gonna be a real loner for 7 months, I live by my own self bc my mom is already move to Bali with her new husband, and my dad is passed away on 1st March.

All I need to do is just believe but I never believe anyone anymore.
What if he cheated on me or forgetting me or maybe some worst thing happen?
Well, take care honey. I love you much. Don't u ever forget me.