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The first call..

Me  : I know you're calling me bcs your phone is already back after the closing ceremony right?
Him : Wtf how did you know that?!!
Me  : It's easy bcs I got a friend who told me that all of student will get their phone back on midday.
Him : That's cool. How is it going? How was ur college?
Me  : Everything's good and I have so much story to tell about.
Him : Well, I got mine too! Really, we need to meet asap. I need to go to the office on Saturday, I thought you free on that day? Do you?
Me  : Yes ofc, pick me up. We're gonna talk much.
Him : But, there will be like 4 or 5 intels around me while I'm in Jakarta.
Me  : Dafuq, should I date you with that fvcking guard?
Him : You might be won't see them but they'll see you
Me  : Whatever, but you don't need to be followed when you get to my home. That's annoying.
Me  : Wait, sorry we can't texting bcs I got no balance at all. Mom didn't transfer me yet.
Him : How to? Hold up a sec, I'll give you

I may say I'm not surprise at all, but I do appreciate and also happy bcs finally this relationship is still working. I thought I was the only lover.

The second call..

Me  : Thanks a lot!
Him : No worry, I still have much. You can call me and also text me when my phone is on.
Me  : Really, thank you. Did you miss me?
Him : Wtf is this question? I miss you a lot. A fvcking million time, I think about you everyday, worried that you won't be okay without me.
Me  : Really?
Him : Yes ofc!
Me  : Me not....................
Him : Oh. Well. That's okay.
Me  : No, you dumb. I'm just kidding. I texted you so much, did you get it?
Him : Not yet, the date setting isn't right.
Me  : Okay wait, I'm gonna call you. Ended the call and I'll call you back to save your balance

There's a lot topic more than this but I should shrink it bcs I'm a bit forget. It's a 20 mins conversation how can you remember that.

The third call..

Me  : Aye, what are you doing?
Him : Packing, prepare what to bring for tomorrow.
Me  : Can't wait to see you. Have you tell your dad?
Him : Yes, I asked him to pick me up in airport. Gonna fly at 7pm. Maybe meet you the next day.
Me  : Well, that's okay don't be in rush if you still busy. Eh, will you go to Bogor with your family or something like that?
Him : Umm, no. I don't know, I guess no.
Me  : I miss you, I want to had a long conversation laying in bed all day with you again.
Him : Me too ney, that's what I really wanna do this whole time.
suddenly his friend's voice appear and say
His Friend : Novan, are you calling your girlfriend. Ey novan's girlfriend, Novan already ask someone in the kitchen to let him have a girl that he could see to be his next girlfriend
Me  : WHAT?
Him : Shut the fvck up, I never said like that. How dare you are!
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(the noise of him and his friend talking)
Him : Ney...
Me  : Hmm
Him : Ney, what's up? It's just kidding, you know me.
Me  : Hmm
Him : Okay, should I ended up the phone
*me ended call*'

Moodbreaker. BREAKER. That's okay you went to Makassar and reach your dream, but what was I heard ? Is that you? Ow. I hope not.
Then he called me right after I ended up the call.

The fourth call.. 
The fifth call...
The sixth call...
The seventh call...
The eight call...
The ninth call....

I rejected.

He text me later.

Him : Why didn't you answer my phone? Are you angry to me?
Me  : Your fvcking friend told that you're looking for a new???! Bitch you asshole
Him : I swear to the God I didn't that, you know there's no girl here, don't be silly. That's the way man to man kidding, you know that.
Me  : Whatever.
Him : I never did anything that you worried about, please don't blame me and creating a new problem. I swear I never did something fool. Do you trust me or them who just talking like that?
Me  : Whatever.
Him : Sorry.

We fight. It's the first time he called me that long but we fight. I thought I just need a rest, I already cried. That's okay, that is okay..

And guess what? We are not fighting anymore.
But I still wanna know the fact, lmao he must be know that I'm a detective.

Well, I just saw my friend's tweet and she said all of the student in SPN Batua gonna get their phone back.

No need too much wish in life, once you get what you need, that is enough! :)

 Let us see, will the phone back tomorrow? I just need to clear my room and also entire home bcs all of the things are messed up.

Tonight is a good night, I said tonight is a good night.


Lately I've been thinking about what happened in my life, such a great stuff even though i know they're sucks.
I'm growing up before I'm 20. I got all the problem comes up to the level I can't reach and it feels like I can't stand with my life no more. But suddenly I think about how good life is with all the things you love are around you. The person who I loved as much I love my self teach me everything that I can't get from my mind, he taught me how to gave what you had, whatever you had, to make everyone's happy specially the one that you love even you're not in mood with 'em.

It's the powerful love that can make you happy, it's the powerful love that can make you raising up and satisfied as hell. My power is come from everyone who loves me. Honestly, I just wonder why people couldn't say they love me directly? I mean, I'd like to hear that. It makes me like got powering up Hehehe.
No.. That's not kind of love that obsessed to be a boyfriend but just loves me as your friend. I still can't get over from Novan's love. Idk if it's fake or nah, as long as I stayed with this relationship I saw him so helpfully, see the answer next year when he's back from his military.



And now, I dedicated my whole life to my ownself and the Creator up there. Whatever I did, I do it for my goodness, and beside I do it for everyone's goodness. We can light up the world with helping each other without ashame, fear, worry about the feeling. Just go straight to be honest with your close friend whoever they are, they deserve it. Except the gossip's one. Make your heart clean up with a honest thought.

 I never wanna hurt everyone who I loved, I just want to be honest 

Mom, I might be not mature enough to live alone in this fvcking place, but thanks for giving me your trust to live and choose my own life, and yes honestly I still need you to feed me up ahahaha. Well, I hope you enjoy your life there with our new little family, and soon I'll bring your younger boy, my brother, to live with you there so he can feel how deep is your love and pay your mistake for not took care of him this whole time.

Legend says, when you can't sleep at night, it's because you're awake in someone else's dream

Well, I never slept at night for a long time, probably I wake up in everyone's dream hahahahaha. It such a dumb thought but that's okay, I'll pretend like I'm okay with this Legend.

So... Nighty night dreamers.. Holly night readers~

As it says....
I got scholarship from my college

Lmfao, judge me for the title.

So, I just realize i love deer and it's growing everyday. Deer is my hallucinate friend, we all know that deer is just an animal. Yup but for me, it's the most prettiest animal I've ever seen then I'm starting to love deer. Why deer god? Why do u asking that question more than once? That's just a name. Why did you put God? Why are u so curious about what I'm talking about bitch.

When Novan went to his military I was trying to find some thing to keep me being busy and I had a lot of fun times with my bestfriends, we shopping, playing, singing, and did another stuff. But when I go home, I kinda confuse what to do at home, so I decided to make more artworks. Maybe they didn't great at all but I apreciate for my own artworks.